For my first ‘official’ blog of 2018 I thought it might be nice to share a small part of my first romantic novel (published in 2016 both in English and Dutch) with you. There has been a fantastic amount of reactions to my WordPress blogs so far and I try and answer each and every one of them. I think at the very least that is polite when people say such nice things and ask to be added to the feed.

First of all where did the inspiration come from? Well a lot of the things in the book are my own personal experiences and some true, also the stories about the places visited, but it is a romantic fiction novel about two people Grace & Matthew.

They know one another in totally different circumstances but meet up unexpectedly at an event at the end of December 2016.

I actually attended the event ‘White Planet’ hosted by a long time friend of mine in the north of Holland. So the beginning of the story is about my own experience during that event. It was that same afternoon that I suddenly heard the title of the book in my mind. We were being asked what our goals and such like were for the New Year and I said I wanted to write something different, a novel, fiction, something that I could make up in my mind, not based on just sharing information or my own experiences.

From that moment on the book began to take form in my mind, I had a title, two main characters and I liked the idea of going from the two of them telling the story chapter by chapter. Of course I had some help too from a friend, again I did not expect this to happen, but it did and he gave me insights about his real life work, which formed the character Matthew in the book.

But in the end, no matter who was involved, this is a romantic novel and has no bearing on people in real life, hence the correct disclaimer.

It was just as if the words fell out of my fingers, I started in the New Year and it was all done and finished by the end of the month. I made a plan: set down the backbone of the book in some notes used some special writer’s software, which helps to keep me on track, and also who is who in the story. It was just as if the story was writing itself.

Sometimes I would read bits out to my own family asking them what they thought and all sorts of things happened whilst writing. For example I was just writing the part later on in the book where Grace has to drive Matthew’s Tesla car. She is hopeless, cannot start it and then my own phone went. A very good friend of mine told me a real life similar story during the conversation. I was flabbergasted to be honest; I had just done several paragraphs on exactly the same subject!

Whilst writing it was as if, each and every moment brought some sort of confirmation, or something happened, perhaps something as insignificant as a song on the radio, as if the universe was constantly sending reminders and things as if to say, this is good, keep going.

Once finished and edited by my own daughter, what better day in any year than to publish a romantic book, than on St. Valentine’s Day, 14th February and just by chance the time was exactly 14.02 when the book was literally published.

The first reactions were incredible, people loved it and a lot of my friends here in The Netherlands said they wanted to read it, but why not in Dutch. Never done that ever before. So another friend helped me with a translation and the Dutch version was published too. Date 20th July 2017. This again made a nice numerological combination(20 07 2107)

Since publication quite a number of things have happened apart from sales and good reviews. The Dutch version is nominated for the Harland Book Award 2018 (results will be available in April 2018).

Also the Central Book Library choose this book out of the hundreds published every day, and shared the first 17 pages for free via their website. This gave me a top hit on Google for a day.

Yes, the Blue House has been a real experience, in both languages and the thrill of seeing both of them side by side is quite something!

So I thought it might be nice to share the introductory pages, which copyright the text as both books have ISBN numbers (obligatory). The lovely quote from Jeff Brown at the beginning is one I love about words. He read my very first manuscript (Impossible Love) and said he liked the style and the story so much. Great encouragement, he is a well-known Canadian author with several publications to his name.

So this is really how it all began.


‘Words so powerful. They can crush the heart or heal it. They can shame the soul, or liberate it. They can shatter dreams, or energize them. They can obstruct connection, or invite it. They can create defences, or melt them.

We have to use words wisely.’

Jeff Brown ©

THE BLUE HOUSE is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictionally. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or locales are entirely coincidental.

Copyright © Jill Kramer 2017

All rights reserved

Published only in The Netherlands 2017 by Brave New Books

ISBN: 9789402158960

Edited by: Nelian Chabot-Kramer

Publications in other countries and Dutch translation: under negotiation

KRAMER, Jillian, Elizabeth


Where do I begin to tell the greatest love story of all time? A story that all started in a magical place: White Planet, in a high dimension far, far away from here. A serene place, totally white, beautiful and intense feelings of love are everywhere.

How can you get there? Well you can only go when you are completely ready to surrender and give in to everything. When you feel that you are at the truly right moment when you are willing to release your soul and fly free. White Planet is a place where everything is possible for everyone no matter what skin colour, race or creed.

Free your soul and allow her to visit a place, which is just amazing!

And this is how it all began!



This is a story that I would have never believe could happen unless I had actually been there.

It was the lull between Christmas and the New Year and I went to an event called White Planet. The date is 28th December 2016. White Planet is part of the Year End Celebration at the centre of my host who I have known for a long time. It’s a spiritual experience, I have been to many over the years but as he had decided to shut the centre at the end of this year, this is the absolute final event.

It was a long drive up to the north of the small country from where I live. Thick swirling mist, so much so that planes were being re-directed and airports shut but with good sense and slow speeds and the unmissable satellite navigation, which is a god-send, (I would never get anywhere without it), I arrive at the hotel I will be staying overnight and check in.

Dress code for the event is all white, logical really because that is the theme of the day. After I had checked into my hotel, and changed into my white outfit, set off once again in the even thicker mist to my destination.

The first thing that happened as I drove up into the car park was that two people got out of a very sleek sports car, one of whom I recognised immediately, a fellow member of the online workshop group I took part in 2016 and then someone I had never in my wildest dreams expected to meet at this moment in this place. Flabbergasted is I think the word I would use and total non belief that this is real, well it is for now, and I know this person well but in a totally different context.

The usual refreshments and the introductions and then the event begins. First of all we are all going to take a journey together and look back at the year that is coming to an end and decide right here and now which energy we are going take into 2017, which in fact is now only a couple of days away.

And yes, what energy do I want? – because this will set the theme for the New Year and I heard during the day that it is important not to focus on negative things that have happened this year and let’s face it, everyone can think of something negative to which we all gave far too much energy and thought to. What is the positive thought I want then to take with me into another new year?

Well actually it’s is quite easy when you think about what is your passion? What are the things that you love to do the most? Well actually I know the answer to that question because the thing I love to do the very most is to write and play around with words. Then I feel at ease and can enter a world of fantasy or facts. I was actually quite surprised that when the host of the event said that I have a talent for writing and 2017 is going to be the year when I write a book and achieve the fame I want. I actually had never thought about it that way, I write purely because I love to and not so much for best seller lists or recognition, it only takes one person to read my words and become inspired by them and that so far, has always been enough.

But it wets my appetite and the thoughts came for this book.

But back to the event …

I don’t want to go into too much detail about the first half of the event, apart from the fact that it was really excellent and food for thought, literally too because the drinks and nibbles in the intervals were excellent as well.

After a huge vegetarian dinner buffet and so much conversation that at times I forgot that I was supposed to be eating, because the initial shock has gone now and I am finding myself engaged in the most incredible conversation and hearing things that I had never expected to hear. I am so engrossed in the conversation that I don’t notice at all that a lot of new people have arrived for the second part of the event: White Planet.

Suddenly the theatre doors open and scented white smoke fills the room, which is so dense and thick. We are asked to walk into the room, which is rather difficult when you can hardly see and sit or lie down on the cushions on the floor. After the earlier experiences that afternoon of falling three times off my ‘Fatboy’ and having to have help to get up, I relented and took a chair.

We closed our eyes and in a long deep meditation made our way through dimensions in time to go to the White Planet. Deep breathing and exhaling and step-by-step we made our way. When I opened my eyes at the appropriate time, I could hardly believe what I saw, there were images everywhere, on the floor, on the ceiling, on the walls and literally everything was white. It was like being in a virtual white world and totally believable that I was actually there. I find it hard (believe it or not) to find the words to say how amazing it was. We saw images and holograms on one wall, the likes of which I have never seen before and then after a second meditation started to move our bodies in the rhythm of the music and tones.

I was suddenly aware that someone took my hand and I felt their long soft fingers entwine around mine, and the feel of someone close, moving like me, not touching, but very close. Eventually when we were told to open our eyes, it was not a surprise at all, but exactly the person I thought it might be.

Later during one of the intervals we went to the so-called ‘chill room’ to relax and move away from the music. It was just magical, completely dark apart from candlelight and on a huge sheet of glass on the floor, covered with crystal balls all reflecting the light of the candles, flickering images on the walls. I laid down on the piles of cushions and watched the laser images on the ceiling. It was all quite breathtaking and all the time I felt the same hand in mine and his physical body close to me.

I was very aware of a huge circle of light which surrounded us and just as if rays of light were shining all around. It was so peaceful and serene and a mixture of dark and light, pure energy all in one space.

The session comes to an end when the level of energy is raised even higher to bring 12 hours of magic to and end. It is just after 2am and after yet another snack and a cup of hot steaming coffee, people prepare to leave and go out into the starry dark night, and have to de-ice their cars. The mist is freezing and thick and I make my way slowly having said my goodbyes back to my hotel and get undressed and sink into bed.

My mind is swirling with the events of the day and I cannot get to sleep even though I feel physically exhausted. Eventually I drift off into interrupted short sessions of sleep to be awoken by the alarm at 08.15.

To be continued ….. in Chapter two written by Matthew

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Also attached is Chapter Two written by Matthew who has a completely different view all about White Planet.

Read on …..



Is this for real? And how many times have I asked myself this question over the past hours. I think back to that exact moment that I got out of my car and there to my amazement is one of my patients getting out of hers. Grace has always been one of my more ‘special’ patients. When I first met her way back in the summer of 2012 she had travelled a long way and also waited for a long time for a second-opinion with me. I remember that meeting well because she has such a story to tell about her heart and when I found out that she had had an operation on her heart way back in 1974 I realised that the names she spoke with such ease, had been the people who inspired me to become the cardiologist I am today.

She had a natural way with words. When I listened to her heart I remember exactly the dress she was wearing. It was a flowing summer dress, blues, lilacs and turquoise and she had a freckled tanned soft skin. She had no shame as she slipped the shoulder straps off and lay down on the couch so that I could listen to her heart. Her ECG was a mess, her heart was irregular and I could see from the echo that one of her valves was leaking slightly. I heard the faint sound of the clicking shut of her mitral valve. She fascinated me. She was the living proof all these years later that the pioneers of heart surgery were amazing at what they did.

The first thing was that I completely change her medication and arranged for a new appointment. Her complete and utter blind faith in me as she shook my hand and smiled was something that I still remember to this day. After she shut the door, I asked my assistant to get her notes from the National Heart Hospital in London, which took quite a while and I marvelled at the papers that lay in front of me: her operation notes signed by one of the most famous cardiologists in the world.

I spoke to her on the phone a few weeks later, when she came back from her holiday in Hawaii. She said she felt better and I made a new appointment to see her again.

Over the years we fell into a routine of regular check up’s and I remember each and every time I came into the waiting room to call the next patient, I would immediately see her sitting somewhere, her whole presence filled the room. She would always look up and smile and I felt myself blushing.

One particular time she was waiting in one of my clinics in the temporary building we were housed when huge building renovations going on at the hospital and the new Heart Centre was being built which would become one of the most advanced and state of art centres in the whole of Europe. It was the medical device clinic and most of the patients waiting were male and elderly. I came out of my room and there she was sitting there dressed in pale grey and a maroon coloured jacket. Her t-shirt was a mass of shining glittery things, which caught the light and her fair hair was flowing around her shoulders. I looked at her, said she was far too early but she nodded and smiled and seemed happy to just sit there and wait reading her book. I rushed through the clinic waiting for her name to be the next one on my list.

She was a joy and always made me laugh about something and after the we talked about her heart, we would always find some subject either about wine or food or holidays and I knew that I chatted on to her longer than I did with other patients. She had soft freckled hands, wore little jewellery (she did not need it) and her fingers were long and she had the most beautiful manicured fingernails.

Yes, she was a special patient for sure, she fascinated me right from the word go and also her story.

Two times we stopped and re-started her heart, it’s a pretty straight forward thing, and she always amazed me by her tenacity and most of all, her complete trust in me that everything was safe just as long as I held her heart in my hands.

I found out through social media that she was also a talented writer and she would often publish blogs and when she did one about me and how I looked after her heart, of course it became the talk of the hospital.

‘Never change a winning team’ she would always say, ‘you are the best doctor ever and I never regret for one single second that I came all this way to be your patient’.

I remember one time when she left I just had a huge urge to hug her, she was that type of person, and I asked her if I could. She laughed and said of course and as I wrapped my arms around her and felt hers around me, something stirred in me deep within. I couldn’t explain at the time.

One of her heart valves started to leak badly and at first I thought she might have to undergo a second open heart operation, but she brushed the idea aside as if to say, everything will be perfect because I know you will look after me.

I am happy to say with a change in medication her valve stopped leaking significantly and ‘our plan’ had worked, the operation was not necessary anymore and her only comment was: ‘see, I know you would just fix it all’. People may think that she was flippant but it was her total trust in me that touched me the most.

This Christmas turned out to be the worst in memory for me. I found out that my wife has been having an affair with one of my best friends and colleagues for quite some time and choose Christmas Eve of all days to tell me that she wanted a divorce and would be leaving in the New Year.
I blamed myself completely because I know I work so many hours every week and I am involved with all my patients and hospital life, but I could not understand how anyone could destroy years of memories in one short moment at the worst possible time ever of the year. We have been married for nearly 30 years and we live a comfortable life. She is the mother of my children for goodness sake, and she really wants to throw all this away?

I went and packed a bag and walked out and got in my car and went to my sister’s. No explanations whatsoever to my boys who were home from university for the holidays, and I found myself driving up northwards, totally shell shocked and wondering what on earth could possibly happen to sort out this mess. I was full of anger, I felt totally rejected and I asked myself time and time again, what have I done wrong? Why? Why now? Then the bitterness came up of how a person who I considered to be not only a colleague and a good friend could betray me like this and destroy the lives of two families? Questions and more questions and by the time I arrived at my sister house, I felt a complete and utter wreck.

Helen is my favourite sister, I have got three but she is the one I feel most comfortable with and as my car drew up at her house, she opened the front door and her arms, which I fell into and burst into tears.

What a Christmas it was and I felt guilty for forcing my presence on her and her own family, but she and I sat for hours late into the night talking and I could talk to her. Then she told me she was going to an event on the 28th and that she would phone up and get a ticket for me.

‘It will be really good for you’,

she said,

‘something completely different and you can just relax and go into a fictional world where love is the only thing you need to think about’.

Yes right, as if I want to think about love, when I feel that my own heart has been shattered to smithereens.

She managed to get the last available ticket and we set off in thick mist to this centre which was only a short drive away and as I parked my car I just could not believe my eyes who got out of the car next to mine. My English patient!!

Helen jumped out of the car, and went to her, they seemed to know one another (how??) and hugged one another as if they had been friends for a long time. As I got out of my side of the car and locked it, she turned around and her mouth fell open with surprise.

‘What on earth are you doing here?’

she asked. She was just a mass of white and glitter, she looked amazing!

Well, to say I was ‘gobsmacked’ would be putting it mildly. Helen was looking at me with a puzzled face and we went through the routine of introductions, hand shaking and walking inside.

Helen said she had been doing an online course during 2016 with Grace and that Grace actually worked with the team translating the words into English.

Of course and now I recall the one time her phone laid on my desk and I had seen her screen saver, which was one of the images I was now looking at on the wall in front of me.

With so many people arriving there was little time to talk and when the event started I could only look ahead and see the back of Grace’s head as she was sitting two rows in front of Helen and I.

We would have to wait until the first interval to continue the conversation … so I sunk back in this huge cushion and concentrated on the words being spoken and the images I could see and what was happening to me!

To be honest I am not sure what to expect really, of course I have heard about the golden ratio and Pi, but sacred geometry – the language of the soul – ?



Happy New Year!

Yes, hi everyone survived Christmas, all the celebrations, food and drinks and then my least favourite evening of the year since I was a child – New Year’s Eve.

It is and always will be a strange moment. A moment of reflection, looking back at what has happened during the 364 days of the year, which is about to come to an end. Do you, like me, have so many things to think about that your first reaction is – thank goodness I survived it all. It was almost like a roller coaster ride. When I took the time to actually go back month-by-month, I came to the conclusion that I have been very busy and have not allowed myself to have much rest. From the first day of January until the last day of December, something has been going on, from highs to lows and to be honest I am exhausted.

After the celebrations of New Years Eve and the actual moment when the clock strikes midnight and a new year begins, before I actually go to bed, I of course like everyone, think ahead about what the next year will bring.

I saw a lovely quote on social media (posted on the 31st December) that said:

Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365-page book. Write a good one!

As a writer I love this idea. The idea that I have a totally blank canvas to fill, with any colour I choose. I can choose what the subjects will be, when and where and eventually and hopefully create the masterpiece.

The beginning of a new year heralds the moment of creating a clean slate. The old year has passed now and on the 1st January, there are endless possibilities.

Do I want to make any good resolutions? Well to be honest, the majority of time I make any, they have usually be well forgotten before the end of January, so maybe it would be a good idea to take a difference approach this year and not make any. Do things differently.

The energy of the year 2018 is a so-called 11 energy (just add up the numbers). When two numbers repeat we call this a: master energy. It is stronger, brighter, has more possibilities than usual, in fact all the pointers are sitting there ready and waiting to make this a very special year.

A lot of people around the world are talking about this. The fact that the coming year will not be thinking all the time about our own personal development but rather joining forces and creating together to make a better world.

Let’s face it; there can be no doubt about it in anyone’s mind. The world today is in a mess! This is putting things mildly too!

But I don’t want this blog to be about things we already know and thus pulling the energy backwards, I hope that it will be to inspire all my readers that we all have to join together if we want to create change. We do for sure. It cannot get any worse.

But the thing that is important is, how do we do that? Well first of all and despite the fact that for years the energy has all been about our personal growth, is now to get ready to work together for the better good of all mankind and create a better world for everyone.

You may be thinking at this moment, like everyone does, how can I personally be part of the change? I have spoken about this before in other blogs, that it literally takes one person to take action and the energy flows like waves across the planet. One single person with a good intention who takes action is enough to inspire others and so the waves gain strength and movement until literally everyone on the planet can feel it. They recognize the feeling deep within.

So in that way, change begins with YOU! What do you want to do this year to make it different from 2017?

Personally, I am taking part from tomorrow for the next 8 days, in a worldwide online workshop organized by a very good friend of mine. 8 days of inspiration and rituals. I am not making any good resolutions this year because deep down inside I know I will not keep them, but I am much more interested in being part of a large group spread across the globe in starting a wave of change.

A better world for all us. No longing thinking about myself, but more about everyone. No longer living on my own little island, but paving the way to join all the islands into one. It may sound like a huge task, it is. But someone has to start somewhere and this was the reason why I decided to sign up for this workshop. I know the work very well; have known the person organizing it for a long time.

Sitting here this dark raining late afternoon on the 1st January I was inspired to start typing something to release out before normal daily life resumes in the morning. When people go back to work after the Festive Season break, when we step into the hustle and bustle of our normal routine.

Just take a moment to reflect yourself. Before you launch yourself in the usual rounds of wishing everyone a Happy New Year (well those you haven’t already!). What does a New Year mean to you personally and how are you going to take the step towards something new?

Remember that often a small step is much better than trying to make a giant leap all in one go. Something small, a word, a thought, a deed can get the ball rolling. That is all it needs. Joining forces, being one, humanity has craved this for centuries. Let go of personal need but concentrate on being part of a bigger whole. That is what the 11 energy of 2018 is literally offering us all.

Let’s make a difference together. The page is blank; it is up to you to write the first word.



The title of this blog sounds awfully cliché, but it is true. At this time of year each and every one of us spends time looking back on the year that has nearly passed. During the year we have all been ultra busy with our own personal lives and never ever having enough time. Ridiculous, you always have time, if you make time. But like it or not, Christmas is a time for reflection, time to think about family, loved ones and friends.

In my own personal life a lot of my friends are having problems within their families, mine included. Often I feel myself thinking; does anyone really know the reason why anymore, if people have had differences of opinion and perhaps fallen out with each other? One thing is for sure, what has happened is in the past, it has happened and there is no one on earth who can literally wind the clock back again and magic the event away. It would be nice I am sure in many circumstances to be able to do this, but to my mind, the only way is forward. Whatever has happened, in retrospect happened for a reason, even if we find it hard to know what the reason was.

Each and every one of us as a soul being, literally craved for the human experience. It was we all wanted, to have a body, to be able to think, speak, listen, look, touch, feel etc. That is why we all choose to come and be here on this planet. As soul beings we knew exactly what the word ‘love’ meant.

Over the centuries and for many reasons a lot of people have abused this planet. Let’s be honest it is not a big planet in the universe. The reason I think we all did this was because we all wanted more and more. Suddenly the feelings we all craved for were not enough. We were judged not about who we are but more about where we stand in life in general, what we possess and how much. Competition and Presentation became the new norm and also Fear and Anger have taken over not to mention jealousy, greed, hate and generally completely losing the feeling that all we need is love!

My radio is playing one song after the other with the same theme – all we need is love. Every film on the television at this time of year is sending out the same message, no matter what is actually going on in your life right now, we should all stop, remember that this time of year is all about peace and love for everyone. No more suffering, no more war, no more famine, no more thirst, no more judgement, no more fear. Just love.


So how are we going to turn the energy around? Astrologically speaking there are going to be a couple of big events in January 2018, two moons in one month. Each and every one of us is thinking about what our resolutions for the New Year might be. A period of time is coming to an end, another year will begin and wouldn’t it be lovely if we could all wipe the slate clean and begin afresh in 2018. To do this needs action, how?

My own experience is that resolutions made for the New Year literally have flown out of the window before the end of January. So how can we think about having a long lasting desire and even more making it literally happen?

The energy for next year 2018 which will be an 11-year (you simply add up the numbers) and 11 is a master number. In other words the energy is even greater. Next year is going all to be about doing things together for the greater good of us all. No more individual ego stuff, but participating in things that have a good effect on us all. Ego is over, we are all joining force now and together we create a bigger and better future. A point is coming when a turning point is going to occur in our evolution.

It is exactly six years since 2012, when absolutely everyone was talking about the end of the world, as we know it because the ancient Mayan calendar only went up to 21.12.12. There were the ‘doom sayers’ all lined up chanting ‘the end of the world is nigh’, but in actual fact, virtually nothing happened. Why? Because in general we did not make any effort.

So how do we go about making the most of this point in our evolution?

First of all the key word is LOVE. Start first of all with yourself. My question is how can you expect anyone to love you if you don’t love yourself? A lot of people feel like this, more than you can ever imagine, they find fault with literally everything, their own self-worth and esteem plunges to rock bottom and it is then impossible to radiate your true self. Remember every single thought you have, anything you say, feel or do acts like a boomerang and comes back to you. There are so many well worn sayings, like ‘you reap what you sow’ etc. so it is important to realize the energy, which moves in wave like movements, is actually going to come back to you at some stage.

First of all begin with feelings of love for yourself. Make an effort. It doesn’t matter one iota if you are thin or fat, you have wrinkles or not, your hair has gone grey, fallen out or whatever! True beauty lies within and in the way you react to others. If you start radiating feelings of love for everyone, in a sensible way, then you will soon notice that a wave of movement starts up and eventually everyone is joining in. The ‘more the merrier’ because in a large group we can have so much more effect on said wave.

Try and find a happy medium and express your feelings of love for one another. It is perfectly OK to have friendships between men and women where there is no sexual tension at all. Despite all the hype going on at this moment about #metoo. This is something completely different and I have already written about this in earlier blogs.

What do you do if you express feelings of love to someone and they respond in a way you don’t expect? Well there are several reasons for this. First of all they may not be ready to accept your love. They may not be on the same path in life that you are traveling on. Don’t immediately take this as a rejection even though it may feel so. When they perhaps write to you and say words like: ‘don’t take this personally but …’ this is a clue that they are not ready. Or, and I think this is even more to the point; they cannot deal with their own feelings, let alone yours as well.

Sometimes in life we can be so disappointed when people react in a standoffish way, and we become deflated and actually wish we had never said anything in the first place. But look at in another way, turn the energy around, what if they actually have feelings for you but just don’t know how to express it because they themselves are caught up in some kind of ‘rules and regulations’ of what is expected of them. Have a think about that and if you have encountered something similar, just remind yourself it is good to speak your truth and show your love, I did say earlier on in this blog that is why we all wanted this human experience in the first place. Don’t forget that!

So this year when you are spending a little more time than usual looking back on the year that is coming to an end, maybe it is exactly the right moment to take a step forward into a new moment. If you have fallen out with family, friends or a colleague, for whatever reason, then now is the moment to make amends. Believe me whatever has happened, you will be glad in the end. Even if you find yourself confronted by rejection. You made the effort to make amends and for the time being, that is enough. They will think about it too, for sure, and who knows maybe an opening will occur, not as quickly as you would like it too, but eventually it will.

There is enough crap happening on this planet don’t you agree. So many disagreements and terrible things, isn’t it the time to make a stand and say enough is enough: ‘I choose for a different approach!’

Saying sorry might be the hardest thing to do and I think it is, but do it, don’t put things off any longer. At least you can end the year by knowing that you personally made an effort and if they don’t respond, just know that the first step has been taken to turn the energy around. That is all that is asked of any of us.

Let’s be united this Christmas and really make an effort. All we need is love, nothing more and nothing less. Let it start with you and then see how quickly the energy starts to flow. Not only in your personal circles, but on a much larger scale as well.

This is I think, my final blog for this year. I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

A special thank you to my own personal contacts and for all of you who write really lovely comments about my words. I so appreciate that you take the time to do this, it makes it all worthwhile and when we speak from our heart to another person’s heart, then this is really talking!



Jill Kramer December 2017

What is your wish for Christmas?

It’s snowing here, we had the first flakes yesterday but then it rained and all was gone. Today it’s much colder, 20 cm of snow expected today in the region where I live. So all you readers take care, try and work from home if you can, its Code Orange/Red. The roads are getting very icy. Take time to keep safe and drive with caution.

I was thinking as I watched the flakes falling and the birds flying in and out of my birdhouse to stock up before its all covered in snow, about Christmas wishes.

No doubt this year there will be about the hundredth repeat of ‘Love Actually’ on the television. One of my most favourite films, even though I think I could probably recite the entire script. One thing that they mention in the film is that at Christmas: you can make a wish and speak your truth.

So that is my thought for today, with only 2 weeks to go. What would be your wish for Christmas and why? Also Christmas is a moment when you can speak your truth and tell someone you have wanted to tell him or her all year. What would you say then? Maybe there is something you have been putting off for a long time. Maybe making peace with someone in your family or your circle of friends. Or colleagues?

This is the time to make amends and perhaps say sorry if necessary. It works both ways, but once just one person takes the initiative, others follow. Make an effort, the energy is supporting you a lot at the moment, it is time to ‘clear the slate’, so to speak; ready to make a fresh start in the New Year.

2018 is by the way an 11-year. This is done by simply adding up the numbers. Because double numbers constitute to a master combination, this makes it extra special. 11 is a powerful combination and it is said that angels communicate with humans through the universal language of numbers and music.

This is nothing new, the theory goes back to the ancient teachings of Pythagoras, and he was the first person to establish the fact that numbers hold vibrational properties. He taught his pupils that the entire universe is mathematically very precise in fact.

If you happen to see repetitive numbers in sequences, just take it from me that the universe is trying to communicate something important to you. Simply close your eyes for a moment and concentrate on your breathing and just ask in your mind: ‘what is the message?’ It may not be immediately apparent but something will happen and the answer will just present itself (usually at the moment you least expect it).

Remember that silence is the best moment to hear the messages, often when you go to bed at night and just lie still before falling asleep. There is so much noise all the time in our present day society. Switch off your phone, the radio, the television. Just been quiet in yourself.

Look back on what has happened this year. Make no judgment about anything, but if you find that you are in some sort of ‘conflict’ situation with anyone in your life, now is the moment to do something about it. I know that saying sorry is hard, but you can do it if you really want. A simple gesture is enough. It is all about just putting perhaps your pride to one side.

What if there is someone in your life you want to say something special to but don’t dare. Well this time of year gives you this opportunity. Maybe you want to say a special thank you to someone – well just do it, you can pick up the phone, or even better talk face to face. Give them a gift of flowers, a Christmas rose is perfect for this time of year, it has a special meaning. Be brave, believe me they will be so amazed and you can start the New Year afresh.

What about members of your family or friends who may be lonely at this time of year. Make a special effort with them too. This is the moment when you can say ‘yes’ to things instead of ‘no’. It’s so simple you can just turn the energy around and work with it instead of against it. You can compare this if you like with the idea of swimming against the current, isn’t it easier to go with the flow than against it?

If you have ‘fallen out with family or friends’ irrespective of the reason, be the first take a positive step forwards. It does not matter what has happened really, its is ‘all water under the bridge’ and time to build a better bridge for the New Year. This is the right time of year and everything is working with you to make this happen.

Anything you are actually thinking will manifest itself into something positive. It is important to keep your Christmas wishes crystal clear, think positive because such thoughts are heard more easily. Negativity only manifests into fear.

Keep your thoughts uplifted and enlightened, in that way you can achieve the highest possibilities.

I really hope that the majority of you have stopped reading by now and are thinking, what can I do? Who can I reach out to? Go on, just do it, surprise yourself by the result. This is the time of the year to take such action no excuses anymore!

It’s all that is needed.

I am very interested to hear your comments, which you can either send by email ( or post under this blog.

‘Merry Christmas everyone, and a Happy New Year’.

Let’s get the energy of the double 11 moving together. When we all tune into the same energy at the same time, it increases the possibilities. For each and every one of us.

So what is your wish this year for Christmas? Who do you want to reach out to?
What do you want to put right?

And my personal wish? I am going to thank someone personally who has been so much more than just a friend this year. Someone who has gone well beyond the normal boundaries and given me so much support one way and another. If you are reading this, I hope you know who I mean? Don’t worry if you don’t I will be in contact with you in the new few days.

Jill Kramer
December 2017

The Clair’s

My theme for the month of December

Is it December already? Last week I spent more than three days writing a longer article than usual on the subject of our senses. Stupidly and by mistake I deleted the document, when I was trying to do too many things at the same time, so having to start all over again. A friend pointed out to me that maybe the second time around, the words may flow a bit better, we shall see.

I have talked about the subject of our senses, or ‘the Clairs’ as I like to call them before. I mentioned them in a book I published last year entitled: ‘True Colours’. As this book was basically about the meaning of colours, as the title suggests, I did not share a lot of information, hence this longer column now.

So let’s have a detailed look at ‘the Clairs’. The most obvious one and the one that everyone knows is’ Clairvoyance’. It comes from the French – ‘clair’ meaning ‘clear’ and ‘voyance’ meaning ‘vision’. So in other words ‘clear vision’.

The word itself, however sometimes conjures up a number of other words such as: extrasensory perception, or paranormal or psychic ability. In some or other way the word ‘clairvoyant’ has a mystical interpretation. A person who has a clear vision about something that may be about to happen?

In actual fact there are six senses:

Clairvoyance (seeing)

Clairsentience (feeling or touching)

Clairaudience (hearing or listening)

Clairolfactus (smelling)

Clairgustance (tasting)

Claircognizance (knowing)

As I said the one we all know is Clairvoyance. So let’s talk about that one first.

The ability to see things clearly. Often that feeling that you have either been somewhere before, or the feeling inside that something is about to happen. This is almost similar to a déjà-vu moment. Anticipating the moment, or seeing something that triggers this feeling.

I wonder how many times have you had this feeling yourself? Do you pay attention to the signs around you? Why do you suddenly feel the urge to take another route to work only to hear later on the news about a bad accident on the road you normally would have taken? A strange feeling that makes you think, why did I do that today, of all days, must have had a sort of premonition?

Can you remember moments when you met someone and had a strong feeling that you perhaps had met them before? There is an instantaneous ‘click’, which you cannot explain rationally. It is your senses giving you a subtle message.

Also the words ‘looking’ and ‘seeing’ have different meanings. You can simply look at something and maybe think: ‘oh that is nice’, but are you really seeing it?

Have a think about that. There is a big difference.

Shakespeare once referred to the eyes as the ‘window of the soul’ so remember all images you look at in any form, are reflecting within to a very deep level. To the core itself. To the very essence of who you are.

When you look at yourself in a mirror, do you really see yourself? The real you within? Probably not. So take a moment before you read any further and go and stand in front of a mirror. Take one or two deep breaths and look deeply into your own eyes. Ask yourself an important question if you have one. The answers may not happen instantly, but at some time, at the least expected moment, they will.

Clairsentience is all about feeling and touching. Again a huge difference in the words themselves. Touching something but really feeling what it is.
Just imagine that you are holding a piece of pure silk in your hands. What does it really feel like? Soft, slippery, it flows through your fingers, light in weight. What does it feel like to touch? What sensation does it give you?

The word comes again from French; obviously ‘clair’ for ‘clear’ but sentience is derived from Latin (sentire), which means to feel.

With the idea that in fact all the intuitive senses are connected to one another, then, you look or see something, you touch and feel it and there are a number of sensations going on in your physical body.

Clairaudience (hearing or listening). Rather strange that there always seems to be two words connected to each sense, but with very different meaning. When someone is talking to you, you hear what they are saying, but are you really listening. It could be with this fast world of multi-tasking and the fact that we are always expected to perform, a lot of the time you hear what they say, but don’t really listen. In other words the message goes in one side and out through the other. It is not really your intention to do this; it is more the pressure you are expected to live under.

Just imagine for one moment that you have never ever heard a single sound, you have been totally deaf from birth. Imagine the complete and utter silence. Whilst our normal world is a place of continuing, never ending sounds. Whether you live in a busy city or in the peaceful country, there are always sounds. All the time. For the deaf there is never one sound.

It’s interesting to see that when people miss a specific sense that the other senses improve intensely. Just as if they are taking over the task. Often people who are heightened senses of vision. The same applies to blind people who have heightened senses of hearing.

Clairolfactus (smelling) or Clairailience

Same connection with the word ‘clair’ but ‘olfactus’ means ‘smelling through the nasal area’. In the paranormal world this means accessing knowledge from the physical sense of smell. Animals do this automatically. Think about a lion on the prowl at night for food. Their vision at night is much more advanced than that of humans, but mostly they will rely on the sense of smell and mostly the scent an animal gives off in a situation of fear.

Smells can be pleasant or totally pungent. Just think for a moment of a beautiful English rose. You have just picked it from a bush. The feel of the petals (soft) in your hands, the scent is imaginable even before you have raised it to your nose. Now there are several senses working together at the same time. Your sight sees the beauty, the shape of the petals the form of the rose itself, your hands (skin) feels the softness and now you as you raise it to your nose to smell its delicate perfume, the whole picture is formed.

Now imagine doing the same thing with a pile of cow dung. You would probably not even pick it up, the pungent smell has already reached your nose and you are repelled by its stench. The poor cows cannot help it, there are no nice and neat toilets for them to use in the farmer’s fields, they just dump where they are and when they need to.

Perhaps you can remember in your gardens long before other nutrients when people spread horse manure around their roses. I can certainly remember it well as a child. The entire garden smelt awful, but my goodness the roses were even more spectacular those years.

The sense of smell is important because it is also a form of warning. If you smell something like sour milk, you don’t use it, throw it away and know that it is not suitable for use.

We associate so many things with fragrance and aromas. It can be mood changing. The smell of something delicious cooking suddenly makes you realize that you are hungry. The scent of fresh bread baking, or a cake in the oven. The words are enough to get your imagination going I am sure.

There are literally thousands of different types of scents. For thousands of years, the makers of perfume have been mixing and combining to make the perfect perfume. They have a highly developed sense of smell. The same can be said for wine makers, beer makers and all chefs. It is the ultimate challenge to create something spectacular.

Clairgustance (the sense of taste)
Clear taste (gustance). The ability to taste a substance before you have put it into your mouth. The majority of people think that the act of tasting something is related to the tongue and the many papillae on it (in other words taste buds). However, the soft palate and roof of the mouth and the epiglottis are just as sensitive. There are five basic tastes, sweet, sour, bitter, salty and umami (meaty or savoury). Umami means ‘delicious’ in Japanese.

The taste buds are able to taste the difference all triggered by the binding of molecules in the food to G protein coupled receptors. All sounds quite complicated doesn’t it?

Not only the taste itself, but the sense of smell and whether something is hot or cold. It all plays a part in giving you the sensation.

The sensation of Clairgustance is the ability to perceive the taste before it has actually happened.

And finally the last in the sequence and probably the most important one of all: Claircognizance (knowing).

This to my mind is the most mystical and magical sense we possess. The fact that we know something. It does not have to be something we have either been taught or learned, but just a feeling that you know if something is wrong or right. And more important for you personally.

The majority of people reading this article have been to school. From childhood we have been exposed to copious amounts of knowledge and to learn things that all attribute to our so-called ‘general knowledge’. I know that a lot of things I learnt during my school years were important and other less so. A lot of knowledge is just stored in my brain and hardly ever accessed. I remember one of the things I disliked the most was Latin. To my mind at the time what was really the point of learning a ‘dead’ language. I found it incredibly boring at the time I remember, being a teenager, but my goodness years later it turned out to be the very backbone or things I accessed at a later age. Languages for example, all words originate from amongst other things, Latin. It has been so helpful in learning different languages because believe it or not, that an old ‘dead’ language forms the base for the majority of words we know today.

Accessing knowledge is fast moving. Take the Internet for example. We literally have encyclopaedias’ of information at our fingertips. Technology is moving really fast; I can see that in my own lifetime. Just stop and have a think about this. You see how fast information can be passed from one side of the globe to another. Whether we want to or not, we are all accessing information all the time. Sharing through social media. Computers and technology are improving on a daily basis.

So in this fast moving world we all live in, it is important to take a small step to the side and think about our own personal sense of knowing. This is not all about accessing and using facts from outside sources, but more about listening to what we already know within. It is not called the sixth sense without reason.

Whether you are a highly sensitive person or not and the senses are extremely highly attuned, making them almost paranormal, the sense of knowing is important to how we live our lives. Our instinct. That little voice within that is always right, however frustrating that may be at times. The feeling you have when you did not listen and you can almost hear that same voice saying ‘I told you so’.

Recently and through a lot of research in the work that I do, not only as a writer but a translator too, my whole daily word revolves around words, their meaning, and the synonyms, typing words to make either a fictional story or a more factual one like this. Sometimes things happen, like I said at the beginning of this article, when I deleted my original text by accident. But deep down inside however frustrating that was at the time, I now know it happened not only for a reason, but also probably at the end this article will be better when I have finished it. It is important to remember that when working on a project and everything goes wrong, you almost feel like giving your laptop flying lessons out of a window, but in the main and almost every time, things happen for a reason. Why? Often hard at the time for find the answer that you want to hear, but in the end it will become clear. You will know why.

Very recently a new chakra in the body has been discovered. It is called the Alta Major chakra and is located where the spine meets the neck.
This forms a link to the other senses and also forms a special shape in Sacred Geometry. The six sided star. We know now that our physical bodies are so much more and that we have more centres of energy within and on the outside. We have bodies of light (auras) that surround our body.

With a very simple technique it is possible to connect up the senses through the Alta Major. If you like creating the six pointed star within your head. Have a think about this.

The sense of knowing lies in the epiphysis or the pineal gland in the brain. By consciously making the link between the other senses that I have talked about above, the six pointed star shape is formed. This shape is also known as the Merkaba. The meaning of the word is very old. ‘Mer’ means light, ‘Ka’ means spirit and ‘Ba’ means body.
The word itself dates back to 100-1000 BC and originates from the Jewish school of mysticism.

The actual shape of the Merkaba when it starts to rotate surrounds itself with circles of light (wheels within wheels if you like) making it possible to transverse all dimensions of time and space. It is a vehicle of divine light.

The basic four shapes of Sacred Geometry also corresponds with the elements: Earth is a: hexahedron, air is an: octahedron, fire a: tetrahedron and water is: icosahedron and the fifth the: dodecahedron represents heaven or the universe.

Now it is not my intention to turn this article into a book, but I am pretty sure you are getting the ‘gist’ of how important the senses are, especially when linked to one another as described above. There is a vast amount of knowledge available on this subject of course.

But it is important to stop for one single moment and realize how important our senses are and how big the role is that they play in our lives. If you like, the connection of the senses, all six of them, creates the ability in us, within, to be vehicles of light. To be totally aware at all times. Naturally, without literally making a real effort. At the same time it all comes back and is related to ancient knowledge: Sacred Geometry. Sacred Geometry is the foundation of every single living being, every living cell in everything and created by the building blocks of Sacred Geometry.

It gives you a lot to think about doesn’t it?

Merry Mistletoe (and Christmas)

I have written an earlier blog all about the hype around #metoo. First of all I want to say that those who have been involved in any form of unsolicited intimacy (sexual harassment) have my sympathy. There can never be any excuse! Ever!

But I am getting to the point that I really don’t want to hear another word about it.

What surprises me is that people want to seek publicity when I personally think that if you want to confront the person who pressured you into this, a discussion in private might be a better solution with a mediator present. Raking the dirt up time and time again does not solve the problem or issue for either party. And the press and media have a ‘hay day’ with it; especially when well-known people are part of the story.

This week, I saw an article in the national Dutch newspaper about mistletoe. Suddenly giving someone a kiss under the mistletoe can also be deemed as unsolicited intimacy or sexual harassment bordering on rape! Oh, come on… This article left me sitting there thinking, oh for goodness sake what next? It has inspired me to write something about the tradition of mistletoe around Christmas time.

Mistletoe is a plant, which is really a sort of ‘parasite’ for a tree. Mistletoe loves apple trees and is happy to live on the nutrients of said tree. Its delicate olive green leaves and white shiny berries make it look attractive and it grows in clusters usually around the top of the tree.

Maratek (Latin Name: Viscum album) is an evergreen from the Sandalwood family. It is called mistletoe, mistel or bird foam. It is a protected species would you believe it? The English name ‘mistletoe’ came from the conjunction of two Anglo Sachsen words – Mistel meaning ‘manure’ and tan meaning ‘twig’. In fact not such a romantic idea when you then combine and make the words: ‘shit on a twig’!

So where did the tradition come from that people started to hang mistletoe in places and how did the idea come about that you should kiss someone under the mistletoe.

The Christmas tradition to hang mistletoe up finds its roots, like many things, in the Church. From Celtic and Germanic times. They considered this plant to be sacred; it represented fertility and was almost seen as a form of aphrodisiac. Mistletoe played a part in the fertility rights. According to legend a person dressed in white clothing would cut a piece of mistletoe from the cluster. It was not allowed to touch the ground, and was then wrapped in white cloth. Then the Druids slaughtered an animal offer and doused the mistletoe in water, which was considered to be a protection against ills and all evil. The offer was made to the Gods of fertility, like the Norwegian Gods, Freya and Baldr. This was really the start of the tradition.

When the Christians came to Europe, they tried to ban the hanging of mistletoe in the churches, but many continue to do this right up to present day. In York Minster Church in England there used to be a special service for Mistletoe in the winter, in which criminals and such like were forgiven for their sins.

So now we know that mistletoe had quite an important role for many centuries around the Festive Season. But how did we get to the idea that people should kiss under the mistletoe. Mistletoe represents peace and love. Well that all started in Scandinavia in Druid times. When people met one another in the woods and found themselves under the mistletoe, they laid down their weapons and had a cease-fire for the entire day. That is where the tradition comes to hang a piece of mistletoe from the ceiling and kiss one another. It means that the entire day is related to goodwill, peace, love and friendship, which is perfect for the thoughts around Christmas.

Of course the kissing tradition began in England (where else?). Originally you had to pick a berry from the branch before you could kiss someone (who just happened to be standing there with you). When all the berries were gone, no more kissing took place. These days, we are not so difficult about the idea if there are berries or not. Personally I did not know this was the case. So make sure if you want to do a lot of kissing this year, pick a branch with loads of berries!!

Under the motto then, that everyone gets what he or she deserves a survey was done. Do people still kiss under the mistletoe and do they know why and how the tradition came about? I am guessing that the majority of people don’t know. The survey said the same.

Having done this research I am thinking to myself, how on earth can the newspapers write an article that an unsolicited kiss under the mistletoe surmounts to rape. What a load of nonsense.

The ancient meaning of mistletoe around Christmas time is love, peace and friendship.

Whether you hang mistletoe in your home or not, it might be interesting to give this a bit of thought and do it this year. Show your loved ones and friends that a kiss under the mistletoe is just a token of love, friendship and peace. A ‘cease fire’ from the pressures of every day life anno 2017.

I am rushing off out now to buy a branch from my local florists. Are you?